So last night was pretty horrifying.
Patrick, Dexee, and I were going to bed, well Patrick and I were going to bed, Dex was already asleep in the middle of the bed, and Patrick accidentally elbowed Dex or something. Anyway she didn’t respond so I picked her up to check on her and she I couldn’t feel or see her breathing. I lifted her up into the air and she was completely limp, completely. I started shaking her arm (not the entire baby, and not hard) and yelling her name (because that’s what you are supposed to do) and she did NOT wake up. the yelling got Patrick’s attention and so he took her from me and he couldn’t detect any breathing either. I fucking freaked. Like I did NOT do what your are supposed to do in that situation, I just started panicking, checking her mouth and CPR NEVER occurred to me at all. Anyway I ran out of the room and started yelling for my mom to call 911, my mom couldn’t find her phone (and yet my phone was on the bed?). And than I heard Patrick say “wait stop” He had stuck his fingers in her mouth to see if anything was blocking her airway, there was nothing but she coughed and started breathing more obviously. Than she woke up fully and cried until my mom took her and then she started smiling ( she LOVES my mom) and playing. I proceed to slink down onto the floor and ball my eyes out. I really though I lost her and it was horrible.
Needless to say it took me a LONG time to fall asleep because I was constantly monitoring her breathing. She must have just been super tired because I picked her up a few more times while she was sleeping and she was, again, completely limp, although after about 5-10 seconds she would twitch or move a little, and she was obviously breathing.
She must have been breathing, it must have just been super shallow. Part of me wonders if she wasn’t though. Part of me freaks out that she was going to suffer from failure to rouse if Patrick didn’t stick his fingers down her throat when he did.
She’s okay though, and I’m okay, and it’s all okay. Thank God.