Something I’ve been thinking about a lot lately is how I haven’t been the greatest friend to pretty much any friend I’ve ever had. I don’t think I’ve ever had a friend I’ve never said anything bad about, complained about, etc. And I’m talking about since probably the beginning of high school. I have one friend who I don’t think I ever said anything negative about, Rachel, but had she lived in the same state as me that might have been different. Let’s just count her out of everything I’m going to say.
I have taken every single friend I’ve ever had for granted. Only lately have I been trying to make it up to them. I have talked SOOOOO much shit about every single one of my friends that I’m embarrassed. How could I have been such a terrible friend to all of these people? Don’t get me wrong, I’m sure every single friend I’ve ever had has said something mean about me. (Well, I can think of one other than Rachel that might never have said a mean thing, or at least not many, about me…this friend I just up and abandoned my senior year for selfish reasons). But still, I just feel bad. That’s not the kind of person I want to be.
I’ll admit, the fact that I am not close to any of my friends any more and that I rarely get to see them has been apart of me coming to realize how selfish I was, how much I took these people for granted.
So here’s to not being a shitty friend anymore!